You don’t love him anymore, that’s a fact. Stop freaking out that you do and that you’ll never love again. You have no idea where the world will take you. Plus, you were able to sit down and think about ten reasons why he doesn’t deserve you, and why you don’t want to date him, in like ten minutes, and at the end, you felt angry and sad. That’s saying a lot. I’m not claiming that you’re over it, because you’re not. He was your first love, it’s a big deal. You’re probably in some awkward purgatory like place, and you’re beginning to near the light. Hold in there and keep your head held high. This may not make sense to the tumblr community, but you did nothing wrong. He’s the one that left you hanging on by a thread when you waited. In the end, this is his fault. You tried. He didn’t. It’s too late, the story’s over now, the end.